Jealousy and self pity plague me.  Without it, I would be a lot further in life than I am now.  I have to clear all of the junk out of my head and only keep the good in.  I have always had negative thoughts ingrained in my head, though they are starting to subside.  I want to be healthy, fit, and sucsessful in my field.  Ahhh life...

New Goals

So I was looking at "The Weight Issue" post I did and realized it is a bit unrealistic.  Up until now nothing has worked for me to loose weight.  Im now trying Jillian Michaels Body Revolution ( a series of workout dvds) which requires 30 minutes a day.  Thirty minutes is not long...I have no excuse not to fit it in.   It hasn't arrived in the mail yet but I will be starting as soon as it arrives.  In other news I have been eating healthier and having less cravings, also drastically cutting down the soda.
   I was able to buy a 2010 Chevy Malibu, which was one of my goals.  Next goal is to find a good full time job that is graphic design/photography or leads me on that track.

Ready...go!

Adventures of Modern Dating

So I have been doing a bit of online dating recently and I'm going to go on a Carrie Bradshaw Sex in the City rant about it.  Why do guys that or online think they can they can be really forward and ask girls that they just started talking to about what sex positions they like or "Hey baby, wanna come over" when you barely typed a line of text to them? It really takes the mystery out of things...whatever happened to old fashioned romance, or "your eyes are really pretty" or "what do you like to do?" The guys I have talked to don't ask me any questions about myself, I ask all the questions.  Mainly it seems they just want to get in your pants or cyber sex and when they don't get what they want they move on right away :(  Or if we do get along, they give up cause we live far apart and they don't want to make the effort.  Im tired of being someone's second choice...very tired.  PLEASE COMMENT...want to hear your thoughts.

Sincerely yours,
   Vanessa